Wow....

I am such a failure when it comes to blogging.... No update whatsoever since November 2... I'm sorry... uh... whoever it is that reads this garbage...

Where to begin? Well, I'm sitting at home right now because JWU believes in giving Spring Break at the end of February... Trimesters, dude, they're screwy, but loads of fun. Anyway, it had been about two months since I'd seen Anna when I got home this past Thursday, and her parents were kind enough to let me stay the night at their place (And by that I mean that they didn't want Anna driving me home and then driving back by herself in the nasty weather).

Well, my mom was a little disappointed by that, but I'm sure she realizes that the only reason I even want to come home every time JWU goes on break is to see Anna and Beckie (Mostly Anna). I have no problem saying that the only thing I would come back to PA for after I graduate is to get Anna. I seriously have no desire to stay in this state. It's way too cold in the winter, way to humid in the summer, and just... dull... There's absolutely NO life in PA's culinary scene. Nobody here even knows what kind of stuff would be served in an Ethiopian restaurant. Sure, there might be one or two in PA, but that would only be in Philly or Pittsburgh (and they don't count).

In case you're wondering, Ethiopian food is typically spicy meat and vegetable dishes that are usually stewed. It's rich, bold flavors and, from what I understand, very, very good.

But anyway... Getting away from food and weather, I just don't really feel at home in PA. There's just something that gnaws at me when I'm here. I feel like I'm supposed to be somewhere else, and that feeling completely vanishes when I'm at school. I don't know for sure if it's Charlotte, North Carolina, The South, or just the fact that I'm out of PA, but that's what I intend to find out.

Also, Anna wants to get out of PA, too. Like me, she can't stand the weather. She's not a foodie like I am, so she doesn't have that claim, but she is the kind of person that likes to go back to where they were born and raised, and for Anna, that's North Carolina.


Well, that's all I can think of for now... I'll try to be better about posting from now on... I know I say that all the time, but I can say it again! :p

Daily thoughts

So... today I had my stewing practical in Traditional European Cuisine... It went fairly well... got a 90%... I made Coq Au Vin... sauce was too thin, but it tasted great :)

Anyway... I'm super excited for Thanksgiving Break... I have off from the end of class on the 18th to the 29th, and I'm going to be going home, which means I get to see everybody. I'm hoping I can plan a movie day or something like that... I haven't decided yet... I would say let me know what you think, but nobody reads this thing anyway :p

So yeah... After Thanksgiving, I'll be starting my academic classes, which follow a more "traditional" college schedule... I figured I needed a break from 7am-1pm labs... plus I wanted to be able to have time for a job...

Well... I think that's all that's on my mind right now... Not a great update, but it's an update nonetheless...

My god...

has it really been more than a year since my last post? Damn... I suck... Well, now I actually have a lot of free time on my hands... Granted, I shouldn't, being a college student and all, but I do... Cause I'm an unemployed college student..

Anyway... Updates... updates....

I gave Anna a promise ring

I'm maintaining a 4.0 GPA

My roommate and I have a scary amount of things in common (Including birthdate)

I'm loving college

I'm homesick

I miss Anna more than anybody can possibly immagine

I've joined the Ice Carving Club

My friends are still totally awesome

Anna and I are falling deeper in love each day (I'll make another post to describe everything that's been going on between us, just in case you're curious... I know you aren't, but I'm still gonna post it anyway ;p)

I got a new laptop

I've come to love highspeed internet

I've learned a buttload of awesome things

and that's about it... At least, that's all I can think of at the moment...

Anyway... I'm definitely gonna try to keep this thing updated... I'd hate to let it just sit here

That's all for now... I'm gonna make another post immediately after this one to tell you about me and Anna

It's amazing how quickly time shoots by

It's been just about a month since my last post, and nothing has really changed.

I'm falling deeper in love every day, and school is... going. We're way behind though, and all because some of the kids in my class are screwing off and slowing everybody down, which is pissing me off.

Anyway... I haven't had any time to write at all, so Eternal Darkness and Bleeding Hearts are still on hold. I'm sure that if I decided to write for them, I'd be able to get some work done, but when i get a chance, I'm just not in the mood to write. Oh well...

So... I'm out of things to talk about already. Doesn't that just suck?

Wow...

It's been a little while since my last post. I guess I need to start paying more attention to things.

Things are going really well right now. Anna said, "I love you" last week and since then, my happiness level has shot through the roof. It's impossible for me to describe how happy I am.

CTC is going well. We're covering Safety and Sanitation, and then we're moving on to Tools and Equipment.

Anyway... I don't really feel like typing a whole lot right now, so I'm just gonna end this...

Life is like candy

it can be sweet, or it can be sour, but either way, you're always left wanting more.

I came up with that myself. Pretty good, huh?

Anyway... I got the lead for the school play! We're doing Charlotte's Web and I will be playing Wilbur. I'm really excited about it.

And to add to the overall excitement, I'm going to be spending the day with Anna tomorrow... well... whatever is left of it after school anyway.

For some reason, I feel as though tomorrow will be the perfect day to tell her that I love her. I know I said that I would wait for our one month, but if the opportunity presents itself tomorrow, and I'm fairly sure that it will, I don't think I'll be able to stop myself from saying it.

The sad thing is, while I've decided to tell her that I love her, I'm also terrified of saying it for the first time. I know Erin was telling the truth when she told me what Anna told her, but still... The last time I told somebody that I loved them, I had my heart broken into a million pieces. Granted, it didn't take long to pick myself up, but still; it caused physical pain. Not pleasant at all.

Hmm... I think I'll risk it. I may not want to have my heart broken again, but I have to take the risk. I wouldn't say it's true love, yet, but it's definitely real and it feels right to me. Just hearing her voice makes me smile. Holding her hand makes my heart race. When we kiss, my heart skips a beat. I would go on, but it's time for me to get off the computer and go to bed. I have a test tomorrow.

Auf Wiedersehen!

Can't believe I forgot to say this...

I kissed her last night. I couldn't stop smiling the whole way home, and didn't stop smiling until I fell asleep. I feel lighter than air and I can honestly say that I can't see how anything could possibly bring me down. Everything is perfect right now, and I thank God for everything that happened to bring me to this point, including the bad things.

And for those of you that don't believe in fate, let me show the chain of events that brought me to this point.

Matthew dies.
My dad sinks into depression and my parents already shaky marriage gets worse.
My mom starts cheating on my dad.
My parents split up.
I chose to go with my mom and Max, and we move to our current home.
I slowly begin to come out of my own depression and begin talking to people.
I make new friends.
I audition for and get a role in the school play.
I make more friends.
I audition for and get a role in the school musical.
I make even more friends and discover that I have feelings for Her.
I reveal my feelings to Her.
I go on a roller coaster of emotions, which ends with a broken heart.
Erin tells me that Anna likes me.
I ask Anna out.
Anna says yes, and I find out that I really like Anna.
I ask Anna to be my girlfriend.
She says yes, and I find out that I'm falling for her.
Erin tells me that Anna thinks she loves me.
I find myself happier than I've ever been.

That's it in a nutshell. So you see, the thing that brought me to this moment of extreme happiness is the same thing that brought me so much pain and misery when it happened. I don't see how anybody could look at that chain of events and chalk it all up to coincidence.

<3 <3 <3 <3 <3

You know what's great about being good friends with one of your girlfriend's best friends? Information.

Erin told me that Anna thinks that she loves me. I was speechless when she told me.

Now I'm not sure if I want to wait until she decides to tell me, or if I should just say it. I'll say it here, just so I can get it out.

I love her.

If she doesn't tell me before our one month, I'm gonna say it. I probably won't be able to last that long, but deadlines help me. haha...

Anyway... that's all the news for now... TTYL

Update!

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NOTHING! HAHAHAHAHA

I bet you thought that I was going to have a bunch of great stuff to tell you.


Seriously though... Things are going pretty well at CTC. We finished cleaning the kitchens this week and we got our text books. So on Tuesday, we're going over our homework assignment and watching Ratatouille. Speaking of which... I still need to do that assignment... Hm... I'll do it sometime tomorrow morning. It should only take half an hour or so, so yeah...

I spent today with Anna. It was a lot of fun. I kinda wish that it would've ended better though. Let me explain... I started to go in for a kiss, but I chickened out at the very last moment and hugged her instead. I feel like a complete moron, and I've been kicking myself since I got into my car.

Two weeks, and I haven't even kissed her on the cheek... ARGH! I'm such a $@*&ing coward!

*Bangs head on desk* @_@

Anyway... I'm really having a bit of an emotional crisis. I'm terrified because I'm finding myself in a situation that I've never been in before. I have absolutely no idea what to do, or how to do it. It makes me feel so stupid, especially when I know what I should do, but can't bring myself to do it.

I've decided that I'm going to kiss her before our 1 month. I don't know what I'm going to do if I don't, but I'll think of something.


Well, I think that's it for now. Still no updates for ED or BH. Sorry.

TTYL