So for the past week, I've been stressing and getting all anxious because I was expecting a phone call from Chef Gladysz, the executive chef at the Hotel Hershey about going to work there this summer. Well, today I finally got the call from him! :)
I'm going to be working in the kitchen that serves the circular dining room and handles room service, so I'm gonna be working my ass off and making $11/hour. I'm gonna be super happy working there. haha
Not much else to report on... Me and Anna worked things out, like I knew we would, and everything seems to be panning out nicely for once. Anna's mom hates me because of how often Anna and I fought while I was down in Charlotte and acting like she doesn't, but that doesn't surprise me much. The way I look at it, if she doesn't wanna talk to me about it, that's her problem, not mine. It doesn't change the fact that I love Anna more than anything else in the world, and it doesn't change the fact that I plan on spending the rest of my life with her... So yeah...
Well, that's all I can think of to say, so I'm just gonna end now... TTFN
Me
- B. Christman
- I'm a Chef and writer who has an immense passion for what I do. I tend to rant and ramble on a variety of subjects, hence the title of this blog. The "in-training" part of the title comes from my belief that no matter how experienced a chef may be, he or she should always be training him- or herself and constantly striving to become better.
Friday, May 27, 2011
Thursday, May 12, 2011
Rant... just so you know
So last night, me and Anna got into it a bit. My friends and I were sitting in the dining hall for 3, almost 4 hours last night just talking about whatever came to mind, which usually means theoretical physics, theology and philosophy. I don't know if any of you knows, or even cares, but I'm what could be called a Free Thinker, which is a philosophical viewpoint that holds that opinions should be formed on the basis of science, logic, and reason, and should not be influenced by authority, tradition, or any dogma. To put it bluntly, believe in what has been proven to you, and don't let anybody else tell you what to believe.
Anna, being the wonderful person she is, asked what we were talking about, just to be nice and so she could comment on it. Naturally, I told her that we were discussing philosophy, physics, and theology. She didn't show any interest in any of that, but I, not having anything else to talk about and knowing that Anna doesn't like silence, started going into detail about what we were talking about. The freshest thing in my mind happened to be theology, so I told her what was said, which was a very bad thing to do. First, because Anna hates talking about anything that could make her start to question her beliefs. Second, because once I start talking about that kind of stuff, I don't stop until I say everything that's on my mind. Bad combination, as you can see.
Anyway, I started saying how if God had a Divine Plan, then that would show that we have no Free Will, but if we have Free Will, that shows that God doesn't have a Divine Plan. Anna argued that God knew what we were gonna do before we did it, but still gave us a choice (Don't ask me to explain how that works, because I have no idea how Christian logic works). I started saying that if God knew what we were gonna do in life, that there was no point in life then, and he should just create us in Heaven. Basically, I was giving a logical counterpoint to every argument that Anna made.
Now, Anna had gone through a very dark time a few years ago and religion pulled her out of it, and I had no idea how much she needed it. I hurt her really badly with what I had said... It didn't help that after she had calmed down a bit, I started talking about Stem Cell research, which, for some insane reason, she's completely against because it's "Playing God". I gave her a hypothetical situation asking "What if you gave birth and your child was blind, but the doctor told you, 'if we use stem cells, we can allow your child to see again.'?" This, of course, stemmed from the fact that a few months ago, Japanese scientists grew an eyeball in a lab using stem cells. That just threw her over the edge again, because in the scenario, what would be done for the best interest of the child went against Anna's beliefs.
What really got me, though, was that Anna shouted "Science can go screw itself!" and that cut me worse than anything she's ever said to me. She KNOWS what's happened in my past. She KNOWS why I'm unable to believe that there's a God. She KNOWS why I believe in science so vehemently.
Just to clarify for those of you who don't know, or for those of you who've forgotten: My brother died of Neuroblastoma (Cancer of the nervous system). EVERYBODY WE KNEW prayed DAILY for him to get better. I went to church every Sunday and poured my heart and soul into praying that he would get better. Wanna know what happened? He got worse. The ONLY thing that prevented him from dying sooner was the medicine that SCIENCE created. The ONLY thing that dulled the pain that he had to suffer through was the pain medication that SCIENCE created. The ONLY thing that could have saved my brother, and the only thing that can prevent other people from suffering like he did, is science. And Anna wants to say that "Science can go screw itself" She doesn't even realize that science is what saved our lives just over a year ago. She doesn't realize that science is what's keeping me alive right now. She doesn't even realize that science is the only reason I can talk to her on a daily basis.
And all she wants is a hug, and I can't fucking give her one. I can't show her how sorry I am for hurting her so much this year. I've been fucking miserable, and I have to hide it from everybody. I have to live with all of this and bite my tongue to keep people happy, because God forbid that I say what's on my mind anymore. It'll only piss somebody off and make them wanna slap me... This is why I need a punching bag.
Anna, being the wonderful person she is, asked what we were talking about, just to be nice and so she could comment on it. Naturally, I told her that we were discussing philosophy, physics, and theology. She didn't show any interest in any of that, but I, not having anything else to talk about and knowing that Anna doesn't like silence, started going into detail about what we were talking about. The freshest thing in my mind happened to be theology, so I told her what was said, which was a very bad thing to do. First, because Anna hates talking about anything that could make her start to question her beliefs. Second, because once I start talking about that kind of stuff, I don't stop until I say everything that's on my mind. Bad combination, as you can see.
Anyway, I started saying how if God had a Divine Plan, then that would show that we have no Free Will, but if we have Free Will, that shows that God doesn't have a Divine Plan. Anna argued that God knew what we were gonna do before we did it, but still gave us a choice (Don't ask me to explain how that works, because I have no idea how Christian logic works). I started saying that if God knew what we were gonna do in life, that there was no point in life then, and he should just create us in Heaven. Basically, I was giving a logical counterpoint to every argument that Anna made.
Now, Anna had gone through a very dark time a few years ago and religion pulled her out of it, and I had no idea how much she needed it. I hurt her really badly with what I had said... It didn't help that after she had calmed down a bit, I started talking about Stem Cell research, which, for some insane reason, she's completely against because it's "Playing God". I gave her a hypothetical situation asking "What if you gave birth and your child was blind, but the doctor told you, 'if we use stem cells, we can allow your child to see again.'?" This, of course, stemmed from the fact that a few months ago, Japanese scientists grew an eyeball in a lab using stem cells. That just threw her over the edge again, because in the scenario, what would be done for the best interest of the child went against Anna's beliefs.
What really got me, though, was that Anna shouted "Science can go screw itself!" and that cut me worse than anything she's ever said to me. She KNOWS what's happened in my past. She KNOWS why I'm unable to believe that there's a God. She KNOWS why I believe in science so vehemently.
Just to clarify for those of you who don't know, or for those of you who've forgotten: My brother died of Neuroblastoma (Cancer of the nervous system). EVERYBODY WE KNEW prayed DAILY for him to get better. I went to church every Sunday and poured my heart and soul into praying that he would get better. Wanna know what happened? He got worse. The ONLY thing that prevented him from dying sooner was the medicine that SCIENCE created. The ONLY thing that dulled the pain that he had to suffer through was the pain medication that SCIENCE created. The ONLY thing that could have saved my brother, and the only thing that can prevent other people from suffering like he did, is science. And Anna wants to say that "Science can go screw itself" She doesn't even realize that science is what saved our lives just over a year ago. She doesn't realize that science is what's keeping me alive right now. She doesn't even realize that science is the only reason I can talk to her on a daily basis.
And all she wants is a hug, and I can't fucking give her one. I can't show her how sorry I am for hurting her so much this year. I've been fucking miserable, and I have to hide it from everybody. I have to live with all of this and bite my tongue to keep people happy, because God forbid that I say what's on my mind anymore. It'll only piss somebody off and make them wanna slap me... This is why I need a punching bag.
Sunday, May 1, 2011
Freaking out
ARGH!!! I'm freaking out so much right now! I just watched Episode 2 of Season 6 of Doctor Who and my mind is just racing a million miles a minute because of it!
*SPOILER ALERT*
That little girl is the cause of it all. Is it really Amy's daughter? Why the HELL is she regenerating? If she is Amy's daughter, was the pregnancy effected by the TARDIS? Is that why she can regenerate? Does she only have 12 regenerations? Is it possible that she is going to become River Song? What the hell happened to Jenny, anyway? ARGH!!!!!!!!!! This season is going to blow my mind in every direction...
I mean, I KNOW that the little girl can't be the Doctor's daughter, because she's at least half human, and any REAL Doctor Who fan knows that Timelords are sterile because of the Pythia (This is the main reason I hate the 1996 Doctor Who movie where the Doctor and the Master state that the Doctor is half human). Hell, the only reason Jenny exists is because the Doctor was forced to use a Progenation Machine (A machine that creates a fully functional young adult using the DNA of only one parent). Ugh... too much to think about... I need somebody to bounce ideas off of... unfortunately, Anna hasn't seen any of season six yet, and nobody else seems to know anything more than what's been revealed since Christopher Eccleston, and even then, their information is askew because they didn't pay attention properly. *Sigh*
*NO MORE SPOILERS*
Anyway... There really isn't much for me to talk about today... After all, the day just started. haha... I'm gonna finish my laundry, grab some lunch, then screw around until I decided to do my homework... That's basically what I do every Sunday... sadly... Oh well...
TTFN
*SPOILER ALERT*
That little girl is the cause of it all. Is it really Amy's daughter? Why the HELL is she regenerating? If she is Amy's daughter, was the pregnancy effected by the TARDIS? Is that why she can regenerate? Does she only have 12 regenerations? Is it possible that she is going to become River Song? What the hell happened to Jenny, anyway? ARGH!!!!!!!!!! This season is going to blow my mind in every direction...
I mean, I KNOW that the little girl can't be the Doctor's daughter, because she's at least half human, and any REAL Doctor Who fan knows that Timelords are sterile because of the Pythia (This is the main reason I hate the 1996 Doctor Who movie where the Doctor and the Master state that the Doctor is half human). Hell, the only reason Jenny exists is because the Doctor was forced to use a Progenation Machine (A machine that creates a fully functional young adult using the DNA of only one parent). Ugh... too much to think about... I need somebody to bounce ideas off of... unfortunately, Anna hasn't seen any of season six yet, and nobody else seems to know anything more than what's been revealed since Christopher Eccleston, and even then, their information is askew because they didn't pay attention properly. *Sigh*
*NO MORE SPOILERS*
Anyway... There really isn't much for me to talk about today... After all, the day just started. haha... I'm gonna finish my laundry, grab some lunch, then screw around until I decided to do my homework... That's basically what I do every Sunday... sadly... Oh well...
TTFN
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